I was just over at Elizabeth Foss's blog In the Heart of my Home and I have come away again refreshed and with a renewed vision for my day. Please head over and read her blog post and be inspired!

My to do list is long......too long. For the past few weeks I have had much to do and not gotten much done. I have been striving in my own strength to accomplish all things. When did I forget where my strength comes from? How did I stray so far from the one who sustains me.
If I look back I see it happening slowly as I became busier and busier and that list got longer and longer. I was not taking the time to bring all things before my God who knows better then I what I should be spending my time doing!
I promised myself I would cherish this time with Hannah Grace.....as I am not sure God will bless us again. I promised myself I would enjoy each moment and remembering my word for the year......I would truly "BE" in the moment and not thinking about the next.
So as I looked at our calendar for this month and then looked around my house and all that needs to be done and I made my lists.....on my own......I was getting overwhelmed with guilt......how would this all get accomplished? We are finishing up some learning projects, portfolios need to be done, company is coming and the house needs to be put in order, we are graduating our oldest from our homeschool this month and the baby just turned 3 months old and I just want to sit and play with her!!!
 How could "I" do it all?
There was only one answer......"I" can't. And then I read Elizabeth's post today.....written just to me it would seem.
And I did the only important thing.......I brought my list and my worries to the foot of the cross and laid them there. I put my burdens down, even the silly little ones......and as I prayed to the One who loves me most I felt a peace and a strength that was not there before. I was not the crazy frantic momma yelling out orders and rushing around anymore. I had a strength and peace that surpasses all understanding and I saw a light that had not been there before.
I am reminded time and time again that when I try to do things in my own strength it just does not work. It is only as I allow Him to work through me that I can accomplish anything! When my steps are directed by Him.......
So today I still have a list and things to get done but my attitude about it is different and I can be a momma that shows the grace that God has shown me to my family today.
And if you happen to peek in my window I will probably be in the rocker cradling my baby while dust bunnies float by on the floor......and I'm okay with that!!

We are studying biblical womanhood in our womens group. Using On the other side of the garden by Virginia Fugate. The book is straight and to the point. We are also listening to an audio that has been moving as well. It is done by my friends pastors wife and is very convicting....
We first began talking about obedience.....ah yes! Obedience to God and obedience to our husbands. Our world has so twisted this and no one wants to hear about submissiveness or obedience...it's all about being equal with our husbands and being my own person. Even within the church this topic is not taught from the scriptures... If you look to the scriptures it is very clear what God says about this.
First point is that Obedience is an act of the heart....isn't this what I work on every day with my children? And partial disobedience equals complete disobedience!
1 Samuel 15:22 tells us
to obey is better than sacrifice
Job 36:11
If they obey and serve Him, they shall spend their days in prosperity and their years in pleasures

We need to be willing to change and we also need to be willing to look alot different then this world would have us look....
PRIDE yes it is our pride that prevents change!! Focus should be on HUMILITY!!

Col. 3:12-13.....humility, kindness, tender mercies, meekness, long suffering, forgiving

Titus 3:1-2 tells us ...showing all humility to all men....speak evil of no one! Be peaceable!

We are never to speak evil of our husbands...never!! Humility means esteeming others as better then ourselves.

We also need to keep a reverent fear of God!!

These are just some of my notes that I wanted to share....I am going to keep adding my notes on here as we go along. It is good for me to go over this again and again.

Kelly over at Generation cedar has a few posts on Biblical Womanhood. Here are the links and a quote from her that I really liked

"Willing submission to my calling and to my husband is not hard because it is nothing more than submission to my Savior."

http://generationcedar.blogspot.com/2008/12/biblical-womanhood-knocking-down.html

http://generationcedar.blogspot.com/2008/12/home-is-more-than-dirty-laundry.html

I am off to do my Christmas journal entry for today and start the laundry, I will post pics of my journal later today....