My new pinterest board.......and a time to knit and spin only the fun things1:58 PM
I have been putting off coming here to write. Trying to figure out the words and how or even if I would share. This is my happy spot where I share about my love of Jesus, my family......my fiber....my knitting....my life. I think writing about it will make it more real.....something I have been trying to not do.....cause it can't possibly be real.
I have a new pinterest board.....the name of that board is cancer. It's a place where I am collecting remedies, recipes and all the things I have found over the past three weeks that will help me get through and beat my diagnosis of non hodgkins lymphoma. I have decided to journal here as we go down this path, I think it will be good for me and for my kids to have my writing in the future.
The past 3 weeks have been a flurry of tests and doctor appts. and lot's of waiting to see what was happening. And here we are on the eve of my first round of chemo. The unknowing could eat me up....it could. But in the unknowing I have a knowing that can not be taken from me. I have a God who loves me and has always wanted the best for me and He is still sitting on His throne.....the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. And I know He has a plan in all of this. I might not understand it or like it or even want it. But I am not the author of my story. That changed many years ago when I accepted Him and allowed Him to lead me in this life. So He is writing my story and I am praying for grace to be able to step back and trust Him as I never have. It's a hard place.
I am a Mom I have 8 kids to raise still and a husband to love and a life to live. I decided from the start that we would not let the enemy steal our Joy. I have such joy in my husband......my kids.....my life. My Jesus has promised me greater joy then I can ever imagine and that is what I cling too.
The Lord is my strength and my shield;
in him my heart trusts, and I am helped;
my heart exults,
and with my song I give thanks to him. Psalm 28:7
And so I have decided to only knit the fun things and spin the fibers that make me most happy. And I have been knitting up a storm......waiting room knitting is great for keeping my hands busy! Knitting is the best therapy! These socks are going to be a Christmas present.
and knitting up projects that make little girls smile is also great therapy! I spun this yarn and then knit up a hat and mittens for my youngest.
So I am hoping to keep writing here as I feel up to it. And I will leave you today with a verse I am holding tight too.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11